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Wednesday, January 25, 2017 speech bubble

I'm here to post a little memory of my grandma ( nana ) , since i was unable to sleep , so i chose to blog about her instead .

My nana , was a super kind person . and i'm thankful to her for nurturing me , giving me advices , guiding me towards a good path , supporting me in every meaningful aspects , being proud of me and loves me .

To be honest , i've met so many great people in this life . and for the past 19 years , she gave me everything she can afford and i think 19 years is too short for me to spend that much time with her . I'd remembered she once told me that she wishes to see that i was being able to get into a local uni right after form 6 , but sadly she couldn't wait for that long . she passed away when i'm studying for my term 3 exam . ( right before i have my term 2 result )

I still remember , due to my grandparents' health problems and the train is unable to proceed their journey, they are unable to travel back to their hometown ( which is my hometown ) to reunite with us during chinese new year 2016. so we are having cny in separate areas and my cousins are also having their own family vacation in europe . to be honest i don't think that travelling overseas during cny is a good idea since it's an annual event for us family members to gather from different places and accompany the old ones in our family . and i'd never thought that it was the last chinese new year i've celebrate with her . it has been 2 years i didnt meet her . AND I COULDN'T MEET HER . ( there were some family problems that i wasn't being able to expose )

So it has been 2 years and of course we use wechat to videocall often but i still miss her soft skin . Her voice was still okay right until when she's having red spots all over her calves , none of us have any idea of what happened . her breath was getting weaker when she speak over the phone , i feel something is off . i convinced her to get a medical checkup and she did consume medications . but none of them work , turns out the doctor has falsely diagnosed the actual thing .

I hate the type of ignorance of my uncles ( who took care of her at johor ) who assumed that the red spots wont bring any harm to her, and when they send a photo of my grandma looking as thin as a stick to us and we were so stunned . and we rushed them to bring her to hospital , my grandma seems to refuse medication and lastly she passed away in her dreams . It makes me angry whenever i think of my ignorance uncles don't know everything matters when it comes to sickness . It was stupid .

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