one of my rants
Wednesday, December 2, 2015 0 comment(s)
Guys , i feel rejoiced after having a semi break away from all this craps and shit junks of life . Life has been hard for me for the past 5 months , projects , jobs , exams , syllabus and everything . It has been tiring .
So apparently , i've been skipping school for days it's not because that i'm lazy , but in actual fact that , i'm suffering from flu , dizziness and menstrual cramp . Been dizzy for days cox weather has been undergoing drastic changes just like our currency . in fact , the haze in kel ain't that disastrous, but the fact of i'm having duty around places that contains heavy amount of smoke and CO gases are making me feeling even worst than ever .
Since it's been days for not attending classes , my chem teacher asked about my condition , in some way , she noticed that im having mental stress , and yes , I'm having one right now . I've been carrying loads of stress since after trial 2 , maybe thats the main cause of me not having the right state of mind especially when i'm carrying tasks or even if it's just a simple task . I've lost myself .
Finally sem 1 was over and I'm planning on holiday trips and i guess it wouldn't work out tho . My parents are busy with their work since they're the pillar of this family . In addition , my sis is going to attend some chinese camp around 12 dec so I HAVE NO COMPANY for this upcoming trip that i'm planning . shit . After having some serious discussions with my friends and my family members , i've come up with a conclusion of going to enjoy this trip myself . YES , ALONE ( without my sis ) . and yes , she betrayed me for going to that camp . i know I'm cruel enough to say this , and if you have any chance of reading this , and finally YES , this is for you sis .
Actually ; shit happens , anytime , anywhere . relentlessly .
so basically , i wanted to go on to a vacation so badly , I've come up with this shit ( i mean, idea ) .
I ASK MY FRIEND TO BUY ME A TICKET without informing my mum beforehand . I know this is yet the worst thing I've done to her . i mean , one of the worst things I've done but i knew that if i ever had my chance to discuss about all this vacation thingy with her , she sure says NO . So what's the point of telling her beforehand , right ? After he aid me in buying tickets online , i told my mum about it and she was outraged with my guts .
we quarreled for about 2 days , she relentlessly scold me like a crazy nuisance and i have no idea why someone could just scream at you like you're her slave or something . everything was confusing and i still have no idea why she behaved this way . But i did get her to believe me about securing my own safety once I've reached there . so , we're all good now . her emotions back to square one where it is stable .
you know , nobody likes it when someone just scold you like a crazy kink out of no where . cause you know you don't deserve to be treated like an option in that kind of way . ( if you know what i mean ) . I know you're mad but , don't treat me like a stray dog where people hit or flushes water at you without giving any reason . please be reasonable sometimes . I've got to admit that you treat me like shit , but i've still gotta respect you no matter what happens cause you're my mum , you've given me this life and you earned money to make sure we are well educated .
so in conclusion , stress changes a person's judge of view and sometimes take over one's mindset which completely changes a person's behavior in a short time . sometimes people just lose themselves , so i'm not gonna blame my mum for behaving this way , thus i hope it will NEVER EVER EVER happen again in the future .
if you guys are still wondering how am i doing lately , i'm just gonna say that ; everything is just as fine as the pictures below .
Here are some pictures i'd fancy which my friend took it for me in a hidden kind of way .
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