Thursday, July 4, 2013 0 comment(s)
Yes . July's test is coming up and i have no intention of doing anything to work for it . none at all . I get poor results for my mid-year exam . well , as you can see it from the point that i scored no A's at all . Which is kinda sad and for the first time ever in my own history of studying , i get an E for my maths ! additional maths of course . Believe it or not , I like it once but the grade just seems so perpetually poor no matter how much i worked for it . I ditched all the other subjects because of it . Forcing myself doing it non-stop . Which you see what i get in return ? i get a fcking E for my additional maths test paper /: It literally screws me up once i get my paper back . I felt helpless , screwed , dispirited , and having mingled feelings which is indescribable .
Apart from all of that , i couldn't blame myself 100% , because when i get really really nervous . I can't get my focus back on track . You see, i get really nervous for my additional maths exam which i couldn't explain why me , myself who facing so many exams in life can get so helpless , scared and nervous while looking at a plain , stupid white paper placed in front of me . why , because it's addmaths . and TGB is in charge of making the questions . which i couldn't hold back the thought of being nervous and all . Because I've been in a state of stupor that time which i have no idea of what I'm writing on my paper . ( I'd forgot all the formulas once I'd opened my paper )
Just like Audrey have said , the greatest distraction of all are friends . and i strongly believe that . Because choosing a partner to sit in class shouldn't be a best friend or a talkative friend ( like me ) . I love to sit alone in class , especially in the front rows and be middle-positioned . Cause I've got some eye problems . I've also gonna admit that I'm too much of a noisy person in class , i felt sorry for the person who want to study to sit around me . I should control myself more in class . Blame me for going to school late for the first day of school . /: So i couldn't choose a seat that i like .
I should put aside all the blames and started to work hard . I should find my focus back and doing everything from the start . I know it's hard . but do i have any choice . Unfortunately , NO .
I'm just expressing my thoughts here and what i wanna say all along .
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