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Perks of why you shouldn't take engineering (part 2)
Wednesday, May 6, 2020 0 comment(s) I've been leaving my books untouched for more than 2 months now. I felt guilty to be honest. So i've been asking my friends around whether if they have started to study or not. Some of them yes and some of them no. Even caught some telling me no but actually they've been pretty obvious that they hide their intentions but that doesn't really bug me tho. I've currently taking my sixth semester now, and things have been a huge mess. We usually need to take mini projects and started to find internship opportunities at time like this. Yes, at time like this. During this pandemic, and way before that i've been sending my resumes to some companies that did power systems and none of them even reply my email. I'm afraid i couldn't finish my degree in time. Cause if i didn't get internship opportunities for this time round, it would totally drag my graduation period until 2021 september or maybe 2022 February. I really do not even wanna go there. So, i'm actually here to rant about my project again. Actually to be honest i have no idea how to do my IED project, i couldn't do it alone. But if i knew myself that i have no idea about how to do all these and still slack around doing totally nothing, that really doesn't help either. Because the due is set by the uni's management team. AND SO.. In this global pandemic season, i pick myself up and started doing from scratch. I think it turned out quite well but i'm not sure if my supervisor will be okay with it because i still haven't took his consent and tried to make things my way. But i tried to finish as soon as possible so after this when i'm seeking for his advice, he will give me some good ratings. But the problem is, my team has 3 person in total and i am the only one working again. Kinda sad right? but i don't feel like that anymore since i've been doing all these alone since the 3rd semester. And i have no trust to my teammates because they couldn't even spend that few minutes to reply my whatsapp message. Besides , i wanna make everything easier so i opened a new file for the project and guess what? I really did everything from the scratch. From planning to making questionnaire to making block diagram , gantt chart, design ideas , fish bone diagram , autocad design and circuit design. I place no hope to my teammates any time now. I have no choice but to slowly make progress to the project. THIS PROJECT IS CRUCIAL why is it crucial i say? Because it determines whether i can took my final year project or not. Without this, i couldn't proceed. And in short, i couldn't graduate on time. So, no choice. I need to do it. i took as helping these people to graduate on time as well. Too many disappointments because i have too much expectations for these people and what they did is to shrug me off and to shrug these off assuming this project doesn't even exist. I couldn't. Perks of why you shouldn't take up engineering (Part 1)
Friday, January 3, 2020 0 comment(s) Slept in the student's hall a.k.a PAP for almost every night for 3 hours. yes i only had 3 hours of sleep per day. It sucks being an engineering student. Life is hectic for almost everyday. I barely even have time for myself. This totally sucks. I only spent most of my free time browsing through Youtube looking at fun videos like Jimmy Zhang and Canto Mando. I don't know why. I am just legitimate screwed up and tired.  
Let me summarise what happened during the past 14 weeks of my uni life since September 2019. I was in my 5th term or what we usually referred it as semester. I was in my fifth semester whereby i am now a third year senior in my university. I took subjects quite fast, residing the fact where i drop subjects that i think it will ruin my CGPA or my current GPA or i just think i couldn't make it through the semester.
I planned to take up 19 credit hour for the semester but i ended up withdrawing one of my subjects which is the EPS ( Electrical Power System). I did pretty bad for my midterm. That is why i took it out from my list of subjects so that i can take it back next semester. I want my midterm score to be pleasing for my carry mark. I cannot accept the fact that it will ruin my GPA i just can't. I cannot afford such mistake.
Basically i took Automatic Control (PCS) and Electromagnetic Theory EMT this semester from the same lecturer. the worst shit just happen. This lecturer that i'm currently having class with is like a very strict kind of guy. He make plans for all the presentations and tests and finals so he is a very organised person. So during our week 7 we are having our 1st midterm test and i did quite well so i expected myself would do better on the second test. and guess what. I've flunked all my test 2 subject papers!! and the worst is yet to come. I'm not going to blame the lecturer /: But this lecturer he gave us 2 assignments for each subject and 2 labs to be done within 3 weeks of lecture. So eventually i have about 9 works pending by that time because he given the task quite late and it is almost test 2 or just around that period. And it has taken a toll on my health and my body. i spend most of my time trying to code and to finish those assignments and lab experiments and lab reports and not to forget about the quizzes oh man. I did not get enough sleep. I have no time to revise for my test 2 subjects. Then i screwed it up. i mean it.
My period came early by the way. Can you imagine for a second like you're too stressful and your period came 1 month earlier than usual. And i had 2 periods for that month. I'm in pain and I'm feverish. i couldn't talk properly and the funny thing is i suddenly can't do maths during my midterm test2. wow. imagine that!
I'm not kidding, i brain suddenly shut down from all those work i've done. During exam. wow.
I couldn't do integration and differentiation calculations. I'm good at those. I can even do better for my assignments (fyi , assignment questions are so much harder than my midterm test papers)
so , in short. I just screwed my test papers. I am so sick of everything. I am so confused like why i even did so badly for my midterm 2 test papers.
Since i am in my fifth semester so i have some thoughts about writing a post on this. Whether you're in a university or not. Feel free to read it. After 5 semesters from this university, i think i learnt nothing. Literally nothing from all my lectures and lab classes. I'm afraid i can't control an optimum value from a multimeter cause it might hold too much voltage on my circuit board. I've burnt so many times i just do what my lecturer says. I really have no idea what have i learn. I only enjoy learning calculations and theories. Because we are trained that way. We are trained to understand theory and everything except for practicals. I'm being real honest here. I hope you are dwelled in this little space of mine. So much integral for this course yet at the end of the day, you have no idea what you have learnt. Okay maybe time management and how to finish your 9 assignments in 6 days. My point here is, you can't learnt so many things in just 14 weeks. Unless you are totally focus on one. Like how master students do and how PhD students do. They only learn and research about that certain topic for years. That's how you learn. So if you think having a degree is on top of the world. Think that again. You will realised what you have, students from other universities have too. if you think you have 3.9 or 4.0 GPA is awesome. Yeah you are. But you are forgetting there are other students who has better practical experiences and also get 4.0 out there. If you really wanna do engineering. Make sure you get your masters overseas. Not here. Practical experiences and hands on experiences are so much more important than just theories. Really. Most of us can't do practicals. Even i can't do unless i know what is going on. Or i draw the system and test the gain outcome, then i will know what to do with my hardware. THE BEST DECISION OF MY LIFE
Sunday, April 1, 2018 0 comment(s) Hello everyone . It's me again . your worst nightmare . nah im just kidding . im such a kawaii loli that nobody can resist . okay that's not the point . My point here today is that I'm finally getting ENROLLED IN A PUBLIC UNIVERSITY !! yeah as the title says , im in ! Ive been offered to a public university in Malaysia in which i'm really thankful and grateful of . Never in my life would I think I would get one of the offers from a university . It's like the greatest ending for everyone of us , for my family of course . okay so actually I came from a middle class family where my mum told me she don't want to waste that much of the money unless I got full scholarship or be totally responsible of my college fees if I really wanted to continue my studies after my spm . so , after my spm ( in case you don't know , its actually similar to O'levels ) , I've decided to call it a quit since my parents couldn't afford the luxurious college entrance fees of any private institution and I don't want them to risk the effort of sending me off to a private institution where all my concern is how much money do I need to budget this week , what kind of part time job should I get to ease their burden . I've chosen to continue my studies after my spm at UTAR , taking accounting of course duh ( cause it's the cheapest course out there at the cheapest private institution duhhhh ! ) GUESS THAT WAS MY WORST DECISION AFTER ALL I have zero knowledge about accounting , finance and whatsoever . okay so my mum just nonchalantly took out her college accounting books to sharpen my knowledge about the basics of accounting ,I guess that accounting is not my thing after all . I got so confused and so stressed out because it wasn't my thing . after all this while , the idea of getting into form6 had never crossed my mind . I've never ever ever think of getting into form6 last time . but you know , the safest place is the most dangerous place ever . and thats why I give it a shot . I took physics as my major . STPM CHANGED MY LIFE . no doubt , it really changed my life . My life has gotten easier thanks to STPM . it's mostly because you don't have to worry about the monthly fees that your parents need to pay for the school . and the syllabus and everything is really really tough . ( I remember myself crying while studying for stpm exam ) It just somehow makes you stronger and tougher as time goes by and it also solely trains your critical thinking skills that you cannot learn from anywhere . and it's really really cheap too ! ( well , im a stingy person ) I like how it makes me grow and get out of my comfort zone because of the super tough syllabus and the moment you know that you cannot depend on your teacher because your teacher is still new and have zero experience teaching the stpm students , you have no choice but to be your own teacher by referring to a lot of reference sites at the same time . ( im sorry my chemistry teacher , you sucks ) even after stpm and I got offered to a public university , the monthly expenses are really cheap and you don't have to spend that much compared to a private institution . that saved me so much money ! and the best thing is , my sister ( who's 3 times smarter than me ) got full time scholarship from a private institution so my parents don't have to spend a single penny on her because she got rm600 allowance every month . I'm thankful for everything I have in life , for me . This is everything I've ever wanted . so for anyone who has financial problems , if you're really good in doing your studies . please don't be afraid to try stpm ! I know it's really tough , but it won't harm you in anyway if you try to give it a chance , right ? Well actually there's tons of bullshits and bloopers about stpm that you get from the streets and from those kehpo aunties and uncles who knows no shit about stpm. ( I've been there too last time , I know ) well actually do you realised something ? HOW THE HELL THOSE AUNTIES AND UNCLES KNOW ? most of them ended their studies around spm then no more . actually they don't have the right to comment something that they're unsure of . especially something that includes the decision of taking the next step in life . WELL , IT'S ACTUALLY YOUR DECISION TO BELIEVE IN WHAT THEY SAY OR NOT . THEY CANNOT DECIDE IT FOR YOU. ONLY YOU CAN. oh btw , I'm going to be a sophomore in my uni in 5 months ! in case if you're wondering , im an electronic and electrical engineering student in ump . growing up
Tuesday, June 6, 2017 1 comment(s) dedicated to my midnight thoughts : 
GROWING UP SUCKS
you know it sucks when you're growing up
when you're growing up , things changes accordingly . your friends doesn't stay by your side anymore , as we all walk in separate ways . your parents gets older and looks older , they're not in their best shape compare to few years ago . Things get more and more expensive and the society changed . 12 y/o looks like 23 y/o . ( its because I have grown this much and I cant even do my own basic makeup ) I'm terrified of contacts , thats why I've never gained enough courage to learn how to wear them .
betrayals , heartaches and everything that you need to experience comes in package when you started to grow up , and when you get to step into the society , things just couldn't get any worst .
To be honest , I just experienced a brutal heartache few months ago , I can still remember it clearly because it happens around mid February , I have this
I was depressed . I feel like I was useless because I couldn't get any scholarships at first . because I've never even wanted to try form 6 ( as you can see from my previous posts ) . and that's just semester 1 . I screwed it big , I can't afford to retake those subjects because I've wasted my time being overly obsessed with this guy . I was so stupid back then . I spend countless nights chatting with him ( because I thought he liked me back ) . So this guy went to college and I'm still at my school studying form 6 . But its okay , the ship is still sailing strong , for 1.5 years ( for goodness sake ) how stupid am I . He rejected me few times but I keep thinking that he will accept me someday .
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but then , I finally had enough of all these craps .
I started to work hard for myself , focus on myself . Keeping myself occupied is the best way of forgetting him . I'm okay .
Few weeks later ,
until then I've met this another guy named teddy . ( I'm not revealing his real name , so I reveal his nickname instead )
to be honest I really really hate him at first , I don't know why . He's tall (180cm) for asians , quite tanned and has this quirky smile which irritates me a lot . The day where I actually met him was at feb 28 . We went for a morning jog and that day I don't feel so well because I had insomnia a night before . As usual , I'm so stressed out that day , because my result releases at 12pm so I need to head back to school to take my STPM result . & jogging at the park with my friends early in the morning was a good choice . at least I tend to forget about my stress once in a while .
so this teddy guy , he seems like a liar at first ( because he was once really popular ) ,
and when he started to compliment me this and that & I thought he's trying to flirt with me ( I'm not buying his tricks btw ) , so it gets irritating as time goes by , so I ended up roasting him and trying to make myself sounded bad so he could stop all these flirtations . I even did a background check of him .
For that time being I just knew him for about 6 to 7 hours and he's already being so flirty like hmm " no I like short girls especially around 153cm " or " let's video call once we get back " and " I'll drive you home today cos tomorrow we'll go to bakkutteh " and he even shaved his beard .
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and I thought he's just being nice to a new friend ( me )
that time I couldn't think twice , because for a moment I think that nobody would ever looked up to me . ( I'm not pretty or rich or popular or anything , I'm just average )
But that day , he drive me home safely . and messaged me " it's raining and you better have a shower so you wouldn't catch a cold the next day "
Then I started to like him a little , as a friend .
and our feelings developed as we went to beach . ( all this while I thought he's just being friendly to me and nothing else )
and soon ...
we dated . ( don't ask me how or when did we start dating , I don't even know )
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